Two

Just yesterday I wrote the “Prologue” here about me feeling lost. Then Kim Hanbin (a.k.a B.I) released this song and it hurts so much. Take a look at the video below and turn on the captions.

It hurts, right? When the lyrics said “What am I here for? Without a clue.” It got me so bad. That is what I’ve been feeling lately. I didn’t know what do I do. I didn’t know where should I go. I didn’t know my purpose of being here.

Then he said again on the lyrics, “My pain that no one knows becomes nothing. When do you become a grown-up, what’s next? You never know, your words today may be your last by tomorrow.” Do you feel that too? Have you ever wonder, when is your last day? Have you ever wonder, what’s next in your life? I did. I wonder that thing every night.

Lastly, he said in the lyrics “Again, facing the night is your heart. I’ll keep it warm with a blanket. Holding back tears at night is your life.” That hurts so deep. I’ve been facing the ceiling every night wondering everything. I’ve been holding back my tears in my room. I’ve been feeling so lonely every night.

This song really got me. I can relate to everything written in this song. I can relate to his feeling. I realize, sometimes it’s okay to cry. Sometimes it’s okay to feel lost. But remember, don’t linger too long with this feeling and carry on. Because they say, life is full of surprises. So maybe let’s just go on and let the universe lead. Who’s with me?