Prologue
Hi…
Wow, I had no idea I would come writing again after a long time… But I guess the instinct to write is basically in me. I don't know what to write actually, I do free-writing, poetry, or just write my own story so that everyone can read my perspective on everything. It’s okay, right?
Lately, I’ve been feeling so lost in my life. I don’t know what should I do here or even what should I do next. It’s like you’re stuck in the middle of the woods with no direction to go, so what do you do? You’ll just follow the sun, right? I guess that is me now.
Lately, I feel unworthy. I feel like I don’t belong here. I feel like I have nothing even until now. I feel like I’m still a burden. I feel like if I’m gone, nobody gonna notice it. Because of that feeling, I’ve been thinking. I’ve been thinking so what do I do here now? What does the purpose of me waking up every day and going to work? What do I’m searching for, actually?
But my friend told me. That everything happens for a reason. Maybe I can’t see it now, but I can see it later. Maybe if I look back 2 years ago, I’m so much different from what I am now. Maybe if I’m gone, everything will be a mess because I do matter. Thank God my friend can bring me back to my senses.
Well, I guess this is a sign from the universe for me to move forward and not just stuck in here. ’Cause as a human, we always strive for more, aren’t we?
